13.3.13

ABCRC, y u no job?

I'm not in the greatest mood today. Last Tuesday I had a job interview for a go green team ambassador position with a beverage container recycling company. Basically I'd go to events around Alberta and spread the word about recycling. Basically it would be an incredible job for me because I'm such an eco-freak with a passion for recycling. The interview felt like it went well, the interviewer was an incredibly chill lady looking only a few years older than me, and she kept saying 'good answer' to what I was saying. She told me she'd let me know by the end of the week either way, but now it's  Wednesday of the following week, and still no email. What's worse is apparently two guys from my class who only applied as a joke got positions there. So it isn't looking good at all, and I'm really sad. I'm not the most outgoing person, it's true. I would probably have troubles instigating conversations with passers by, but I'm willing to try, because this is my passion and I've been dying for an opportunity to help spread the word. I felt like I portrayed myself as a passionate and dedicated individual in the interview, but I feel like I wasn't 'outgoing' enough, or somehow she realized I'm shy and wouldn't be right for this position. I have driving myself crazy all week, obsessively checking my emails to no avail. Guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I thought I was qualified, and was confident, only to have that confidence slowly dwindle away to this point, where my motivation to do anything is at an all time low. I feel like there's no point to try anymore, which is melodramatic, yes. But such is life. I climbed that hill, looked out upon the crest, only to fall back down the other side. Now I sit in the sunless valley, staring up at these walls, lacking the energy to start climbing again. But after some rest perhaps I will.

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