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please refer to the post prior to this one to explain my following actions.

It makes me angry. I know there's no right for me to be, yet I am. And I don't want to change. Yes, I am frightened by this. I have seen unsettling similarities between myself and my mother. They're growing exponentially now, and I don't have any intentions of stemming the flow.

You have as much a right as any to enjoy yourself. Maybe I'm jealous, it's entirely possible. Maybe I'm afraid that you'll damn yourself further. Maybe I'm just afraid. Maybe I could be avoiding the conclusion. Maybe I'm overreacting. I'm almost certain I am. But that doesn't stop me from acting in this manner.

"what's wring with smoking toking and drinking? Richard doesn't see a problem with it, and he's grade 10. Emma doesn't see a problem with it, and she's grade 9! Melissa doesn't see a problem with it, and she's grade 8!"

"Wait, what? Grade 8? That's disgusting. Revolting." He thought I was talking about drinking toking and smoking. No, I'm still stuck in the past and thinking of something else completely. Revolting.

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