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how can others love me when i dont love myself?

i always looked up to you, i admired your many talents; your art, your voice, but mostly your skill at being a mother. you were always on top of everything, always there. i realized i may have taken it for granted and i really regret it. things have changed alot and it will probably never go back to how it was, but we can still make the best of this. i know the problems you have with us and yourself. i want to tell you it's all ok, and sometimes things are out of your control but that's the beauty of life, you just have to learn to accept it's not all up to you. realize what you do have control over and even if it's just yourself (which it usualy only is) then maybe that's all you need. its all in the mind, life's what you make it and all that bunk.
maybe its easier said than done. i bet it is but i can't even imagine. i just want you to know i'm here for you and i love you.

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rudeawakenings said…
i love you too...
yes, it's all in the mind, but the mind is a universe and there is no end or beginning and i am lost in it...i want to share so much of myself but i sometimes i have too much and sometimes there is nothing...finding eloquence and simplicity is sometimes simple and sometimes impossible.
mom
Anonymous said…
awe!!! sooo cuteeeee

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