cant sleep by bed's on fire

my mind is restless
thoughts wind in and out endlessly
i try to grasp on to them, to remember them
so i can write them down,
so others can think them as well.

but its pointless
i decide to, instead, accept it as it is
to know i thought them
and to let them go.

its reffreshing.
i think things once
why think them again?

Comments

jEeRo said…

hEy
i love this sentence u wrote 'i've been subjected to a completely different class of human beings. a different world completely.'..i feel that way often..feel like i dont belong n such..
keep on writing..
love readin your blog..

October 5, 2008 at 7:22 AM

neighborhood nights

I feel like somewhere along my life there was a shift. Suddenly nothing was for fun any more, it was all necessary. Suddenly I'm bothering with what others think, afraid to link any connotations I deem negative to my being. Why do I care what people I've never met, who'll forget they ever saw me, think of me; this obscure stranger in their peripherals. It's a warped sense of mind and place, seeing the space around me in my mind's made up ways. So I stray away from everyone, isolating myself unwittingly, turning them against me. Self fulfilling prophecies, I succeed in creating this reality. I need to break free from my mind's mentalities, with which negativity has propelled me. So I've started a new sport. I call it neighborhood night dancing. Donning headphones and heading out alone to the empty streets as the city sleeps, and moving to the beat. Letting it compel me towards a freedom long gone missing. Letting go is an art. Complete release is a tough ...

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ecotone

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