You just wont admit it

I walked around with no specific destination,
letting my mind lead me on a trail of pleasant sensations.
I slipped.
I can't wait for the spring to come and make rivers of it all.
and I wont need to worry about dirtying my fancies.
I revelled in my miniature stature, ofunimportance.
I found stars, I found stairs
and hidden little paths.
I rummaged around my bag for chapstick.
Sparks.
solitary, but I had no one else to be.
exploring the brambles,
my fancies in shambles.
My knees torn and worn away
but my heart light and feathered.
the sky, the pale white glow of eternity

the Smoke rising off The horizon
the Weeds, clinging to my velcro
And that faint Smile clinging To Myself
[capitalization is important]

Comments

pihzaz said…

so serene. beautifuyl

February 3, 2009 at 9:59 PM

Anonymous said…

I like this.

February 4, 2009 at 9:39 AM

enter the struggler

Don't give up. I'm only starting to see the gravity of your situation. the extent of your damnation. In short I don't blame you for your frivolous disposition. I blame myself for not being enough to change it. That came out wrong. I can't, nor do I want to, change you. I just wish I was insentive enough to make you wish to change. Or maybe change is non-existant. I want you to grow. You're playing a static and stagnant role whilst I am flourishing and thriving. I know I'm not the same as I was when we were first in love, but the change is amplified relative your inert stance. I've always cared about you, but that too has been altered by the hand of circumstance. I've known countless feelings for you, attachment, love, lust, caring, anguish, concern. I've always felt something for you. Now it's stronger than ever before. No more silly juvenile notions of "love". I care for you like a sister, a mother, a lover, a friend. You say you don...

i dont know where im going with this

no one ever needs anything. they only want. "i need to get atleast 75 on this test" no. you want it. because you want a good mark because you want your mark to go up..ect." you want it because you dont want the alternative. aka failing. you dont need to go to school. you probably should, you probably should want to, but you dont need to. lets get a more exagerated example "you need to take this medicine for your illness or else you'll die." you might think this is a flaw in my theory. but it isnt. you want to take the medicine because you dont want the alternative; death. but you dont need to take it. you never need to do anything.

I wish I could

I'm a moon person too. But I'm too caught up in my petty securities and routines to wander the streets at night

rude awakenings

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