a little part of it in everyone

i was reminissing, going back to when this all started.
so much has changed but i'm so afraid that it's stayed the same.
"if it wasnt for you and emma i'd have gone to bc"
back to that time when things were so messed up
maybe they still are. maybe i'm blissfully unaware.

I know i'm crazy, i'm insecure, i'm hopelessly self destructive.
but i don't want to be fooled again. maybe it wont even happen.

but atleast if it does it doesn't come as such a shock.
haha ya right. like that will make it any better