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sadness is nothing more than the cost of being able to smile once and a while

I feel disillusioned. Unsure. Afraid. I guess the mask is slipping. The chemical imbalances are strong and they pull me under with greedy fingers. And I greedily comply. I hate how I'm so complicated. I hate confusing myself, and having no one to untie the knots of complexity. Just a neat little blanket to cover it all up. A beautiful distraction. I thought it would all go away. That I had found the cure. A vaccine instead of mere painkillers that make me turn a blind eye to something that continues regardless. But it was merely a speed bump. You are a rumble strip causing the vehicle of my mental unravelling to slow. The gas pedal pressure was relieved but the brake was left lonely. There is never any abrupt stop. Just transitions from one state of mind to the other. I played blissfully in your gardens but the rain is coming yet again as the foot comes back down crushing the pedal. And I'm frantically searching for some shelter. I want to crawl inside you and wrap myself in yo

hey blue

I wonder where he is, where he will be, where we stand. We leave our past behind so we can create our future. The piano puts fourth its trickling voice, amazing how ten fingers and eighty eight keys can create something that pierces my soul so. White, black, white. White, I love you. You mix with anything. You are everything. You are undifferentiated and pure. Your fields of pristine melt against my gentle hips. You illuminate each dark corner of mine. Once I thought I was darkness Now I know I was only waiting for a light to show me the way inside. I am an empty shell. Hold me close and you'll hear the song. Really, it's all you and there is no ocean inside. A mere blush of blood coursing with no way out. And yet, It sings to you, tells you what you want to hear because you made it believe. You picked it up, ground worn and empty, And filled it with the rush of what it is to fly. with the elation of the safety in your hands. The subtle push of blood beneath your gentle skin cr