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Close Encounters

An ultimate decision of everlasting sacrifices. walking walking, one two three across these barren lands. check it out, these dirtied hands, picking dust from everywhere. I lose myself in each step I take, leaving behind footsteps sodden in lost feelings the water pipe will break soon, I can hear it. Does it matter? matter, mind. master mind. I'm drowning here, in insignificant events unimportant, unenlightening, it seems that all is a circle, no ending. Pulling me back when I thought I'd gone so far. It's a sad truth, my sad truth. one of them, at least. My fashioned reality is an adverse one, my own mind is out to get me. ..It seems. Pull the veil, shed this outer skin, calloused from countless close encounters wrong turns down dark alleys leading nowhere but your own demise. A mental escapade, we've made this world an escamotage, using big words, disguising frail desperation. Deception runs wild as the depression runs deep. Losing hope like water through fingers. Ye...

I wish I could

I'm a moon person too. But I'm too caught up in my petty securities and routines to wander the streets at night

I can't contain myself

The same emotion is rendered every time, a feeling of subtle panic, of hopelessness. Maybe it's only confusion. How can they all be content in their situation? It all looks so hopeless. Yet they put on a facade of indifference, a tough outer layer. I have no desire to crack it, to glimpse the vulnerable inner layers, it doesn't concern me. so i remain transfixed by the hard surface, wondering, but never wanting to know. Everyone's so engrossed in their own lives, bundled in their inner layers, where it's warm and familiar. I'm not comfortable there. I'm despondent , standing in a hallway. Everyone has found a room, a place of solace, yet I am hesitant. My feet are rooted through the hardwood in a callow lack of confidence, merely a feeling of jejune aversion yet it has grown so thick in my soul that the emotion is all I know, all I am comfortable with. I'm sabotaging myself, my mind body and soul. The winds of time are eroding me. I am a hollow vessel, ...
I don't want you to see me like this. I don't want to be weak for you. It's not your problem, you don't need another one on your back. I don't want to worry you. I just want to be here for you. Be everything you want of me, help you out. I know you need me, I know you want me. And it's been so long, I need to help you. I need to be here for you. For myself. I WANT TO SCREAM AND RIP EVERYTHING APART

recipe cuz i was bored this morning

une nouvelle recette. 1 tbsp oil in small pot, fry 2 tbsp chopped onion till translucent, crack one egg in, stir. add 1/2 cup cooked rice, a dash of chili powder, garlic powder and sage, continue stirring until egg is fully cooked, add salt and pepper. eat with pita or french bread.