You just wont admit it

I walked around with no specific destination,
letting my mind lead me on a trail of pleasant sensations.
I slipped.
I can't wait for the spring to come and make rivers of it all.
and I wont need to worry about dirtying my fancies.
I revelled in my miniature stature, ofunimportance.
I found stars, I found stairs
and hidden little paths.
I rummaged around my bag for chapstick.
Sparks.
solitary, but I had no one else to be.
exploring the brambles,
my fancies in shambles.
My knees torn and worn away
but my heart light and feathered.
the sky, the pale white glow of eternity

the Smoke rising off The horizon
the Weeds, clinging to my velcro
And that faint Smile clinging To Myself
[capitalization is important]

Comments

pihzaz said…

so serene. beautifuyl

February 3, 2009 at 9:59 PM

Anonymous said…

I like this.

February 4, 2009 at 9:39 AM

teardas

this is the reason i broke up with him in the first place. because it was so much stress and it just seemed hopeless. i know that's a harsh word but its true. he's got so much on his plate and i dont want any more on mine. i have my own set of worries i need to take care of. but i cant just turn him away. the way he opened up to me...it litteraly moved me to tears. i feel his dispair, his depression. he has nothing. but i dont want him to have no one too. at the moment i feel thats all i can do; give him the comfort of knowing that i'm here for him, that he has me. contrairy to his beleifs he hasnt lost me. if he really had, i wouldnt have seen him yestrerday, or tuesday, or any times before that. we wouldnt have acted or talked the way we did if he'd truley lost me. his words stung because i felt his pain through them. his feelings soaking the words and turning them a different colour. i never told him to get the fuck out of my life, but it hurt to know thats how he fe

I wish I could

I'm a moon person too. But I'm too caught up in my petty securities and routines to wander the streets at night

neighborhood nights

I feel like somewhere along my life there was a shift. Suddenly nothing was for fun any more, it was all necessary. Suddenly I'm bothering with what others think, afraid to link any connotations I deem negative to my being. Why do I care what people I've never met, who'll forget they ever saw me, think of me; this obscure stranger in their peripherals. It's a warped sense of mind and place, seeing the space around me in my mind's made up ways. So I stray away from everyone, isolating myself unwittingly, turning them against me. Self fulfilling prophecies, I succeed in creating this reality. I need to break free from my mind's mentalities, with which negativity has propelled me. So I've started a new sport. I call it neighborhood night dancing. Donning headphones and heading out alone to the empty streets as the city sleeps, and moving to the beat. Letting it compel me towards a freedom long gone missing. Letting go is an art. Complete release is a tough

rude awakenings

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