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I'm small. I'm needy. Warm me up...and breathe me.
This incomprehensible fear of mine,
intangible and incoherent.
These tears that fall too frequently for no forseeable reason.
The emptiness I feel within
The way I'm clutching to this elusive happiness.
seeking out this higher conciousness
wanting inebriation but not by normal means.
repeating my mantra of mind over matter
but the more immersed in this,
the more trying it is to find reprieve.
I push the one's I love farther and farther away
in hopes that they'll read my mind
know that I'm in need
wanting fiercely for help
but too wavering to ask it myself.

that is it, the song is over. thought I'd something more to say..

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Anonymous said…
and I love you. =)
January 29, 2009 at 9:23 PM
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